I tried to make it work. I really tried.
Maybe I tried for a little bit too long
But the feeling kept coming back.
I wasn’t getting what I needed in the relationship.
He couldn’t keep his word. So I couldn’t trust him. I couldn’t rely on what he was saying.
And he was saying all the right things. I think it was his winning strategy, to say things that he thought people wanted to hear.
But his actions always said something completely different.
One night, I had a dream that we were at a pool party and instead of leaving with me he wanted to stay with his friends.
It basically summed up the relationship.
I think it all started with his relationship with his mother.
Something she had said to him when he was a child made him feel like he couldn’t handle things.
She was frustrated and disappointed.
He was incapable.
So hefound what he was looking for by moving as far away from her as he could and he created a new family of friends on the West Coast.
And in the same way that people put their families first, he put his friends first.
Then he generalized the feelings towards his mother to his ex-wife and managed to be as far away from her as anyone could possibly be in a relationship. No sex, separate vacations, lotsa time with friends.
When I met him and we were just getting to know each other, things were good because he knows he has to work to maintain his friendships.
But as soon as we were in a committed relationship, it was was a whole different ballgame. He started creating distance and hung out on the edge of the relationship.
With his friends.
Expectations
As soon as you’re in a relationship with someone, you have these expectations of what commitment should look like, and those expectations can lead to disappointment.
I stayed, wondering if he would change.
And wondering if I would ever find somebody else if I left.
And feeling a bit fearful about it all.
And mostly feeling frustrated and disappointed.
It’s that conflicted feeling when you’re feeling resentful because you’re definitely not the priority in a relationship with someone that you don’t even trust.
But you stay anyways.
I couldn’t let go.
Those internal conflicts will drive you batsh!t crazy.
Newfound Resources
I got my friend who’s a hypnotherapist to hypnotize me to see if I could let go.
After the session, I noticed that things didn’t bother me anymore.
I was able to let go of something that wasn’t working and more importantly, the idea that if he just changed (in almost every way) the relationship would work.
I lost the feeling of attachment where you want the relationship to work so badly but you know that it’s not working, and you can’t let go of wanting it to work.
Somewhere along the way, l let go of my expectations.
The loosening and letting go of the expectations and the attachment created a space of clarity so I could finally see what was really going on clearly.
And that even though he was saying that I was his priority. His actions said something completely different.
I was now able to hear clearly what he was really saying.
Thawing Out Emotions
I was still frozen with a fear of feeling like I might never find anyone else.
Then we ran out of steam and ended the relationship.
I felt the loss. The loss of what I wanted it to be, what I wished it could have been, if only the relationship was different in almost every way.
Hypnosis helped me process these emotions quickly and get clarity. It was like my subconscious put them in order, like a reconfig that you run on a computer so it takes less space in your memory.
I started to date and something had clicked along the way.
I am an introvert that usually feels anxiety dating but there I was, enjoying dating, enjoying just going out for a drink and getting to know the person across the table infront of me or more often, beside me at the bar (and the reason why is a whole ‘notha article)>
Then I realized that my fear didn’t have the intensity that it did when I was still in the relationship.
When I felt trapped in the relationship, it was like there were balloons that were full of fear, blocking my view. I couldn’t see past them.
The hypnosis session had taken all the fear and worry out of these balloons. Now they lay flat and lifeless on the ground.
I couldn’t locate the feeling that I would never find anyone. It had disappeared.
What was there instead was a feeling that I just wanted to date. I wasn’t in a rush to find a guy, the fear was gone.
I knew this feeling would help me take my time so I wouldn’t rush into the next relationship. I didn’t feel compelled to commit to someone because of the fear of being alone.
Dating was just enjoyable.
Each date was like a possibility.
I wasn’t attached to a certain outcome.
I wasn’t trying to fit a square peg into a round hole. I could clearly see that it might not fit.
And I knew deep down that if it didn’t work out that i would be ok.
Not just ok but better.
Just like things got better the second I left the relationship.
I felt free and happy.
Hypnosis can give you a totally different experience of dating. That experience already exists in your subconscious mind because it knows how to create that experience for you.
What’s Your Sign?
Here’s the signs that hypnosis will work for you.
- When you have conflicting emotions — like there’s a feeling that something just isn’t right. You might not you might not be able to pinpoint it. But you know something is off and you can feel it, even though you might not be able to verbalize it.
- You feel bad. You feel feel fear. You feel stuck.
- You wish things were different in almost every way and you wonder when things will change but some part of you knows that things don’t really change. Especially when you’re stuck.
- Things don’t make sense when you really think about them.
Hypnosis is the thing that can make all of that bring clarity to all of that.
I see hypnosis clients for attachment, and in a single session, women who’ve been attached to an ex for years (sometimes decades) are able to let go and move on and create space for an actual relationship, not just one in their head.
When you have clarity, you can make the best decision for you.

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